do more stuff

i just have to tell myself: 'bonkosi, do this and do it now (or soonish)'

1) actually start working on my senior project. for real.
2) go take self-portraits with johnny. somewhere and sometime soon.
3) MAKE MORE ART. i continue to tell myself to. i just have to act on it.
4) eat nutritiously (and more than once a day), drink more water, do pilates or yoga at least 4x/week, blah blah blah.

...it just doesn't get done. i'll do it, just as soon as i stop freaking out, or rather stop NOT freaking out. that's the problem. i feel like i'm doing something ALL the time; researching, reading, writing or thinking for class, working at one of my 3 jobs, making time for the love of my life. i guess i just haven't figured out if that's the case, if i'm actually doing anything.